Feeling the Past Literally Connecting




When I say ‘connect to the past’

It is in not figurative sense.

I truly believe that wherever those connections lie in the brain is a place I can still access.

Especially 

if it is a place I tried to forget 

or just one that went unconnected for years.

Although many thoughts and connections are provoked over my mind with intention I also have moments in life that were not fully connected to and thus just latently took their place in the brain.

Some of that might be from a lack of memory

inability to connect

 due to what I was putting in my brain. 

The brain needs gut flora and nutrients to create memories. 

If it doesn’t have those going for it 

it might just fuck up. 

My theory is that it fractured those memories 

or just didn’t absorb them as it should have. 

Maybe it even created an island of glitched rapture

just for them.

Now that time has passed I attempt to think back on those memories 

or I go to a place that triggers my mind into them.

You literally connect to the past.

Yet sometimes you connect to the disruption. Your brain glitches as it tries to connect where it initially did not connect properly.

A sense of displacement strokes your skin.

Your mind feels something is wrong.

That it did not connect to life the way it wanted. Should have.

These are just feelings. Analysis of what happened

in this mind.

Yet it feels so rawly true.

So sense-making of life connections.

Besides a lack of proper memory creation, there is dissociation itself. 

A complex idea…or I just fear reaching into it.

That is still in my mind to discuss later.

It has been for…a long time.

I fear it.

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SI-Ya Ray

Greetings beautiful people. I bliss out over crafting new flavors, interviewing test makers and restaurant owners and discovering the brain.

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